Journey on the Labyrinth of Life
Sunday, April 28, 2024
Mothers Prayers
I remember standing in the back of the church on Morgan Street while some old man began to pray. I almost always cracked one eye open , hoping to see who else did not close their eyes when they prayed. I always wondered what would happen if my eye looked out only to find another eye staring back. I knew I would either be in a lot of trouble or be sworn to silence not to tell on that person.
When my Dad prayed , now that was a different story. I always closed my eyes and often folded my hands because his prayers were the real thing. I knew when he spoke to God , God had to listen because to me growing up, he was the closest thing to God that I knew.
My mom, on the other hand never prayed. Not out loud at least. I always figured she prayed some time but just not in public. I considered her a good person. I just never thought of her up there on a pedestal with God like I did my dad.
I am sixty years old now and mother is ninety. The truth is I had just not been listening close enough to hear my mom’s prayers. I realize now that even thou she was never a deacon in our church. She never gave great speeches or sermons, she had a powerful message showing in the way she lived her life. She lived a quite simple life , raising her children and grandchildren and living her prayers in our home and in our church.
I know her faith was what kept our family together. Her silent but dynamic prayers were what kept us close to God and sheltered us time and time again. Her love and faith made me want to be “the good son” when I was nine years old and today at sixty her love and faith continue to inspire me to be a better person.
I will never place my mom upon a pedestal. Not because she doesn’t deserve it. I know in my heart she is one of the great “saints of heaven “that we sometimes sing about. But my mom is a real person. A real person that made mistakes and isn’t always perfect. But she has taken what God has given her and led a full and loving life doing the best she could with what she had.
Thank God for the silent prayers of all mothers.
Thursday, December 22, 2022
THOSE SHOES by Stephen Jeffries
Sunday, November 13, 2022
Thankful
Friday, December 24, 2021
Its a Howdy Doody Christmas
Friday, November 12, 2021
VIET NAM VETERAN
I would never hope to speak for all vetetans. But I do think that many would agree that as a veteran it is nice to receive the discounts and thank you's on November 11th. It is nice to be acknowledged as an important part of the American fabric. So I say "Thank you"
Being a US veteran is hard⁰ sometimes. I sat on Friday with a group of veterans who probably saw and experienced the horors of terrible wars and spent their lives trying to live a normal life.
It took me until I was in my fifties to even accept the fact that I was also deserving to be called a "veteran:
Many of the men I sat with were wounded , maybe not physically but within their soul where
it really counts.
I avoided the draft in 1967 by joining the air force. I was pretty sure I was not very well suited for combat or for
carrying a rifle. But I also had been raised to believe serving in the military was a calling from God.
Nievely I took.my Christian belief into a war zone somewhat out of choice and somewhat out of necessity.
Little did I know my life and faith would be made better by a war that to this day is morally questioned and still determined to be a black spot in American History.
I get alot of "thank you for your service" comments . I appreciate hearing that but it sometimes seems more like a scripted greeting when you meet a Viet Nam Vet. As Americans we are sorry that the welcome home parades after World War I and II were not lavished on the Viet Nam Vetetans. In fact I vividly remember being told to not wear my uniform or advertise that I was a returning Vietnam veteran. At the time I did not care. I was just glad to be reunited with my family.
It took me a lot of years and soul searching before I could even tell people that I did not know, I was vet.
So glad I got to the place of being proud to be part of such a great and diverse group of people.
I will be the very first to admit now after forthyseven years that I was lucky to have served in the US Air Force. I was assigned a job to assist the commander of a fighter squadron. I was responsible for a room full of M=16 rifles. I did my job to support the war effort as I was told but never fired a rifle or hurt a soul. I never saw blood or anyone die.
I was lucky. But I was there. I was in the midst of a war torn county that was just as afraid as I was with one huge difference. This was their home. This was was where their babies were born and where they sought to survive the anguish of war.
Now I look back and the time I spent "in country" seems so brief. but as I remember counting off tne days away from Joyce and Michael, it seemed like an etetnity.
Now trying to put this part of my life in perspective, I know without the weekend trips to Kim Chou Orphansge, with my friends and with a young Irishman named Patrick, my life could have been much diffetent.
I could never celebrate the Viet Nam War. I could never celebrate any war.
But I also have no regret for the time I spent there. Are the people of Viet nam better because of this war or because I was there. I doubt there life is better but I know I am better for having met Patrick and the children of Viet nam.
We heard stories of so many children who died at the end of the war. I was haunted with that reality and by the fact I did not know what had happened to the orpahans I fell in love with at the orphanage.
Patrick had maintained some contact with the orphanage. The small boy named Nam that I had so wanted to bring home with me, is in his fifties living in Saigon, working as a barber.
Being a veteran has changed me but it has also taught me that being an American citizen is also an awesome responsibility and should never be taken for granted. We can all serve our country by participating in making it a better place to live not just for ourselves but for all citizens of our great country.
Thursday, July 29, 2021
The Cross
Most people would have called him a “pack rat“. I always knew the clutter of “junk” in his repair shop on Morgan Street in Rushville had a higher purpose. Most things he saved he could just not bear to give up hope on. If he could not “fix’ or remake what was broken, he was sure to find a piece or a part that would complete or repair something else he had “saved”.
As it was with the broken alter cross from my home church in Rushville. You see the church burned to the ground when I was a teenager. Lost in that fire was the home of a lifetime of memories of growing up. Lost were the “stain glass windows” that had been added . Surprised were the members that watched them melt in to liquid vapor reminding them they were not “the real thing but plastic made to look like real stain glass. For me as an early Christian this whole event cemented how fragile our lives are and how much more a church is than a building and its contents.
Searching through the ruble of what once was First Baptist Church of Rushville, My Dad came upon the alter cross, blacken and in pieces. I know he knew it wasn’t really “holy” or sacred. It was just a cross and a symbol of what is holy and sacred. Yet the shiny cross had reflected a lot our our family’s lives thru the years. It had seen me as I went forward to be baptized. It had seen both my parents dedicate a life time of living and giving to their church. My Dad had served communion many times from the table that held this cross.
Since I was a jeweler, Dad had mentioned several times through the years about having the cross restored. I had never picked up on what he was asking and to be honest had let it pass. It wasn’t until Thanksgiving Day when He had a heart attack that I saw the cross. Nestled in the turmoil and chaos of his shop was the cross. I realized the importance of the cross when I first saw it.
Next to it I found a bronzing kit that he had purchased from the the back of some magazine. You know the one that says” become a millionaire over night. Bronze baby shoes as a business.”
I could tell he had applied the bronzing solution to the cross.
My first thought was I will try my hand at restoring the cross. A few days before Christmas my Dad’s heart burst and he was rushed to Methodist Hospital for open heart surgery. When He finally came through the surgery, I began to look at the cross. I soon realized the bronze paint that had been applied peeled off rather easy and after peeling off the entire cross with my thumb nail, there it was the shiny alter cross that I remember growing up. Evidently the solution Dad used ,took off the black and damaged surface and restored it’s luster .
On January 16, I was so proud to show my Dad “The Old Rugged Cross”. By than I had repaired the base and except for a few scratches , it looked pretty great. As he walked out of my shop for the last time he said “maybe now it could be back in the front of church where it belongs.” Little did I know that this would be his last words to me. My Dad went to sleep that night and didn’t wake up.
In morning his death I first clutched this cross as a symbol of all that my Dad stood for. In my heart I knew he was right. It needed to be back on the alter where it started. But I also was realistic enough to know not everyone would feel the same way about it that I did.
That was over ten years ago and I still have a problem letting go of the cross. I can make a thousand excuses why it should remain in my closet, protected from the trash heap. I have just never found the time or place to return it to. Yet I still hear his last words and feel I let him down.
Wherever this cross ends up, it remains a cherished memory of my Dad and his ability to see the good in all things. I have been called a “pack rat” also. Yet I confess that my motives for saving things are not always as pure and gracious as my Dad’s. I just seem to accumulate a lot of “stuff”. If it is for good use, that remains to be seen. I do hope if I leave no other character trait to my children, I hope they grasp the ability to see the best in all people and not to give up on them